Monday, January 28, 2008
I know its strange coming from a female, since women are very into the whole emotional sphere and all that , but I am unique that way , or atleast thats what I suppose.
Anyway, to me we never retire. Never really retire anyway as we always end up doing soemthing or the other . Women start sitting in the balcaos and gossiping or start arranging matches(typical of goans) or the men take to fishing , real estate or head to the "club" where they have discussions( their term for gossip).
When I think of retirement I think of absolute calm and lack of any activity , withdrawal in a sense. In our lives we have phases of retirement, when we turn away from the world to sit aside and rediscover ourselves , others or a passion /goal. It helps to regenerate the energy that is sapped by the mundane nature of the things that generally surround us. A time to look within maybe, discover things that lay hidden for years , conquer fears. So we never truly retire , completely.
Monday, January 14, 2008
Standing alone , the cold rain washes away my tears
Faces in the distance smile and sympathise, but on different levels we do not merge ,their sympathy means nothing
No one usually gets past the outer sphere , but those few whom I hold so near seem so far away
And truth be told being a loner is not my thing I doubt it is anyone's
I long for someone , but somehow still let very few in
I hate standing alone in the rain, I cut myself to feel again even if its just pain
Numbness is not unknown to me
I have little happiness and very little joy , but those moments have passed on into oblivion
Well I have to smile and carry on , but I'll always be waiting for to pass me by again my friend
I miss the things we did , thoughts we shared basically just you
I would give up many things to have those moments back , to be with them and call them dear
But life drags everyone in a different direction and in each there is a lesson to be learnt ,a lesson that will change who you are forever
I was happy the way I was ,then pulled into this new street, into solitude
I'll wait and learn and then hopefully see light and happiness again
Till then farewell dear ones , till we meet again .
Well here goes
1) make better use of my abilities and don't let them go to waste, paint more often , act in plays , dance etc
2)update this damned thing every week, so theres lots more coming .
3)make myself a priority, something I've never managed to do, everything else is more important or comes first , so lets give it a shot this year as well.
4)be more adventurous , you can interpret that in what ever way you want to
So wish me luck then